What I Was Fearing Most is Happening
I have cried a lot today. I am a blubbering mess. A few weeks ago I got a email from Safeway for a trip to the Albertsons Culinary Kitchens & Technical Center near San Fransisco – after some thought I agreed to the trip since Eric would be at home with the twins. But it would mean what I have been fearing most — a night away from my kids. I did not think this would happen for a while. I have been around Gwendolyn for every hour of her life but maybe 10 over the course of the last 3 months. I know they are in safe hands with Eric of course but the thought of not snuggling with them or giving them kisses at anytime is really hard.
The trip is only one night — any tips on how to get through that first night? I will be pumping out milk during my trip — should I try and bring it home? should I dump it before going to the airport? Is there a way to donate it? It will be around 50 oz of milk — hate to waste it all.
PS — I have cried a total of 3 times while writing this post